2 weeks ago
Today marks 16 years since I was involved in a tragic accident. Most that follow my account already know that I love photography, that I also love my job as a truck driver but only a few know about this. On September 30th, 2003, I was driving that beautiful rig back from Wisconsin. 2.5 hours away from my hometown on a clear night, star filled sky, I was enjoying the ride while listening to music going 95km/h / 60 mph when a pick up truck deliberately swerved into my lane at an estimated 160km/h /100mph and ran into me head on. The driver was 18 years old, from what the cops were able/allowed to tell me, and decided that he was done with life. Long story short, if you have already pictured the scene in your head, your probably wondering how the hell am I still behind the wheel... The answer, I'm not even able to give it myself!! Passion, determination, the need to drive, all of those combined got me back behind the wheel the very next day eventhough my dad, who's also a driver and my boss at the time didn't think it was a good idea. The difference; they RESPECTED my decision, they LISTENED to what I had to say. To this day, I haven't really driven that truck model. Honestly, I'm SCARED of it. 16 years later, I still hear people tell me to "Get Over It" but I just can't. That event changed my life, my perception forever. Why am I saying all this you may ask?? No, I'm not looking for pity nor support. I've overcomed most of it on my own. What I want to bring up is AWARENESS! That kid that ran into me that night had some issues but did anyone ask or was he just laughed at?? MENTAL ILLNESS, PTSD, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, OCD etc are to be taken seriously, not laughed at. YOU CAN'T judge what someone else is feeling inside. YOU CAN'T tell anyone to "get over it" without living it.I was lucky, I had great support around me. My parents, great friends and an awesome boss that allowed me to take a breather, to sit with them and tell them exactly how I felt. I'm out there, I'm driving and doing what I love but unfortunately I know people, some friends as well, that deal with PTSD on a daily basis, that had to change their way of living because they couldn't handle it anymore.